I want my baby back!!!

Tonight, I am a free woman. Sort of. Tobi and I are headed to six flags with 15 teenagers tomorrow(wish us luck haha!) so Uriah had his first slumber party with Drew,Britt and the kids. I got to go out with friends and not have to worry about what time to be home..it was just like life used to be..before the husband and baby. It was actually a lot of fun, and I think we made it through the evening with only about 16 "I miss my baby" comments... sorry ladies. :)AND I made it most of the movie before I got my phone out and text Britt to find out if he was asleep or not.

At several different moments during the night I found myself missing "the old days"..days of little responsibility and decisions that consisted of what to eat that night. Not discrediting my friends lives..they do have responsibility, work real jobs, pay real bills and have their own things going on. But its obvious we are at different places in our lives and thats OK with me. I couldn't decide all night what emotion was more evident, having a blast having the night off from parenthood or missing my sweet vestimus who I'm sure hasn't even noticed I'm missing. I couldn't decide until I walked into my empty house about an hour ago..the first thing I saw was Uriah's packnplay sheet on my bed. I forgot it. in the midst of all of the crap I packed,I forgot it. I so almost picked up the phone to call Britt, thats right at 11:30 pm to tell her I forgot it, to tell her what to do instead. To tell her that I forgot to tell her that he needs his sound machine in his giraffe bag to sleep well, to not forget his tummy time after each diaper change, and to give him one more kiss from me.

Here's the funny thing..Brittany has three children. She is FULLY aware of how to take care of a baby..and she loves Uriah as much as her own. He is in good hands, but you see I found out very quickly that there's no such thing as taking the night off from parenthood. Yes, I had a great time..but I do not understand how some parents can pass off their children to anyone and everyone night after night, weekend after weekend. My son is my world..and I don't feel like I need a break from him. Maybe its my super parenting skills...maybe its that he is such a good baby..or maybe I just dont have enough kids. I am sure there will come a day when I want a break, but for now I will take time to remember fun memories from when I was a free woman and live and soak in every moment I spend being "tied down".