Fifteen blogs for the price of one.

There are three things in life that I am extremely consistent in: being inconsistent, facebook, and eating. I'm reeaaaally consistent with that last one. If it weren't for the scale adding pounds by the minute, I would seriously wait until next month to try to lose any of them.

I hate New Year's resolutions. Once again, I'm really consistent at being inconsistent. I tried setting resolutions a few years..didn't work. So I try not to set them now. I occasionally set little goals, and I try really hard not to set them in January.

This year, I was sort of embarrassed into one. Haha so I bought some sort of belly firming undergarment contraption at Dillard's on clearance because the delivery of my son left my body..um..less than ideal. I guess this makes me a REAL mom. (as if being cut in half to birth my 9lb 8oz baby boy didn't make me one.) All I need now are some super sweet Mom jeans. Anyway, the firming contraption indeed firms, and makes my belly look like a very tight,firm, 5months along pregnant belly.

But hey, its better than flab right? wrong.

I keep telling Tobi that I look pregnant. He's learned a lot since we got married..most importantly he's learned to lie. I always get the response "no you don't, you look beautiful!" "no way, you're skinny" or some other response not fit for a blog. He's learned its better to be nice than to have a crying wife who isn't speaking to you:)

Well turns out, I was right. I went to my home church last week to get Uriah after he spent the night with my parents. When I was there, a friend of ours came up and put her hand on my oh so firm belly and commented on my baby bump. ooooops! haha it probably embarrassed her more than me. One good thing pregnancy did for my body was even out my hormones apparently.For those of you who've known me for any extended period of time you know that I've been known to be..a little..umm..emotional. I used to go hide out in the bathroom and cry when my brothers made fun of me. HA! Somehow, instead of being humiliated and crying, I laughed off the mistake of my phantom pregnancy. Weird, huh? It did, however, make me decide to cut out the cokes and include excersise once again into my day. I ordered some more Advocare from my sales cousin Jeremy, and I have drank 47 gallons (or so it feels) of water today. Maybe I'll get these last ten baby lbs off (and the few I've gained since :/) and then some more.

My second little goal, isn't so little.

I've started reading my bible..all the way through. I don't know how many times I've attempted this. I always get a little bored starting at the beginning and quit. Embarrassing to admit! But this year I have a plan. Literally a plan, on my Bible App on my phone. I don't like reading the Bible on my phone, I can't concentrate and I don't feel like I'm really reading it. So I pull up the plan that has a reading from several different books everyday and read it from my leather bible..you know, the one with my name on it. :)

I think this way will be more successful. I'm reading from 4 different books of the Bible everyday, so I'm not overwhelmed with all the geneology. BUT get this: I actually learned things from the geneology this go round! Who knew there's actually meaning behind a list of a family tree? Its actually really cool to see how it all fits together.

Maybe my intentions have something to do with it.

I teach a girls small group on Wednesday nights (you'd never know it, we've been on sort of a break! Thank God we start back this week!) and one of the girls in the group gave me a devotional for Christmas. One of the first things I read from it was James 4:8 "Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you."

I'm finding it more and more true. And its become my prayer daily.

If you think about it, pray with me. For me, and for yourself, and for the church as a whole. It may just make the difference on whether or not I finally complete a goal and become consistent in something other than facebook and eating. :)

Also, I keep up with a blog of a lady I've never met. Itsalmostnaptime.blogspot.com (as well as several others) and she recently posted a blog about finding your passion. Then Haley Hensley posted a blog about the same blog. Ugh, Jesus likes to tell me things over and over until I get it. Am I alone in this? Lately my life has been a little...passionless. I'm content. I have a husband who makes each day better than the last, a sweet baby boy who's smile is the talk of the town, some youth I genuinely enjoy being around, not to mention a thousand other blessings.

I'm comfortable.

Too bad Jesus doesn't call us to be comfortable.

So where do I go from here? I'm now on a search for my passion. Lets be honest, my heart is in a precious country in Africa.

So I guess a more accurate description is I'm on a search for a specific purpose for my passion.

I had a brief text discussion with my brother today, about the Passion conference. (ironic?) and he told me there was a video I needed to watch from the conference about stopping sex trafficing.

I told him I sort of didn't want to watch it anymore. haha I just have a big heart for things like that. I mentioned that I couldn't even listen to my Daraja choir cd because it makes me miss Kenya and feel like a tool for living my life here and being focused on myself and my family when I've BEEN THERE. I have SEEN it with my own eyes. I've been a (very small) part of the change taking place.

His response: Do something about it.

Doesn't he know I have a child? And bills? I told him the truth. Tobi and I are talking about going back. Trying to figure out how, and when. We actually talk about it pretty frequently. Trouble is, we don't have 7 grand plus updated passports, shots, and bill money.

Brent's response? "Trust and obey.".

Sometimes I wonder why I even talk to him.

Please pray for us to follow God's guidance on actively pursuing the things God has given us a passion for.

As well as your own.

If you don't know what you're passionate about, ask God to reveal it. He's always faithful in doing so.