Who needs six flags when you've had a summer like this

So it has been a long hot summer, and its not over yet. The past few weeks have seen Uriah'sfirst dentist appointment, first time off the diving board, first scraped knee and much more. Tobi has resigned from the youth pastor position and we are now on the scary yet exciting path of trying to find a new church home. We love St Luke but when the Lord says go, you pack your stuff and you say lead the way.
    I think its safe to say we have experienced every emotion possible this summer. Fear, excitement, confusion, support, and my personal least favorite, agony..
   I have been meaning to blog, its theraputic and there's a ton of things I have wanted to blog about. This is not one of them. Tobi and I found out on July 2nd that we were expecting our second baby due March 8th. We told the world shortly after.. our first pregnancy was picture perfect with no complications so this one had to be the same so why wait? I will spare the details but we recently found out that there will no longer be a baby in our family this March.
We had almost a full week from the time we suspected til the miscarriage was confirmed,and I really think that helped us come to terms with it. It is not easy and to be honest the only reason I'm writing about it is to get the info to the masses that a few days ago were still congratulating us.
 We have been overwhelmed with the support we have been given by those who already know, and I can't even begin to say how comforting it has been. But I will say the most comfort has been given by the one who breathed life into the precious boy napping in the next room. I can't fathom the reasons He has for letting us bear this pain, but I am confident in the fact that He loves us more than we can comprehend and he has held us thus far and I don't believe He is ready to let go. We will be ok. If God is for us who can be against us? Haley Terry posted her blog about their first week as house parents ( so excited for you guys still!) and something she said stuck out to me. "God's plan isn't always get pregnant, havebaby, raise baby". This hit me between the eyes. All of the sudden I was Israel demanding a king. Tobi and I had a plan. When Uriah was one we wanted another baby. God's counsel was never sought. I am NOT  saying that was the reason this happened, I am saying it has caused me to step back and evaluate our actions. We want more children, our plan is to adopt eventually, maybe we will adopt before another biological child. Maybe we won't. My point is, we are seeking God's will for our lives..please be in prayer for us as we mourn our loss and seek where the Lord wants us to go from here.

"As for God, His way is perfect.The word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for those eho trust in him." Psalm 18:30

"The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord."  Job 1:21